I realize in these past few days that in fact it might not be the easiest to post about all of the awesome things I find going on in the world every single day. My first realization is that I have, perhaps uncomfortably high expectations for each one that simply does not match the the time I have available, and secondly I realized that sometimes I would rather write about other things. My resultion is simply writing, so perhaps if I just get in the swing of writing, the rest of what is in my head for my high-expectation posts will come along easier with time.
Anyway, this is called observations, because sometimes I think about things and they can't quite escape my head until I write them out. I figure this will probably be a reoccurring theme so I titled it observations 1. Lots of brain power and cleverness went into that, I know.
My observation has plagued me most intently the past several days, it had occurred before but the nature of tiny made me not care that much. I have noticed that when I am back in my hometown, I don't quite feel myself. Which is quite strange, no? I feel as though the normal thing would be that people feel comfortable and themselves at home, and it just does not bode that way for me. I do not think that it is my home, or the people within it that makes me feel so, I think it is perhaps the town, and that I never felt at home here. In fact, my goal was always to leave, I feel more myself almost anywhere else in the world besides this place, which it find severely odd. Now the the side effect of this, is that when I am home, it truly feels as though all energy, motivation, and desire to do anything is gone. I don't know what it is about this place but almost no matter what I do, and no matter how badly I may want to do it, i am continually am too exhausted to do it in a reasonable time frame if at all. When I leave I get it all back, and I can accomplish all that I need to, but when I am here everything is bleak and there is no pressure to do anything,regardless of how important. This bothers me quite a lot, mostly because I do not understand fully why this occurs. Does this happen to anyone else? I feel like it affects the entire town, yet no one realizes what exactly is happening.
Well, that is my post for January 2 of this year. Here's to hoping I can keep this going.
Word of the day: Esoteric, understood by or meant for only the select few who have special knowledge or interest.
As in, this blog may have a rather esoteric audience
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